Better than this

Data entry: January 11th, 2026

11 days since the New Year 

Ache

That’s what I feel in my heart

Maybe I’m too demanding,, is what I thought 

Until my friends confirmed I wasn’t crazy 

Tears wanting to spill over the old wounds of a toxic breakup

The innocence of not knowing dating goals

With the wish of the princess treatment without asking

The date I wished to happen is now one I wish didn’t 

Oh I love the aquarium with the jelly’s and to see them move with such grace 

Put my outfit together thinking she would compliment

She didn’t but I was still a beautiful femme

Keeping the quiet kept the peace but the feeling of being important disappeared 

Did a gesture only for her to compliment it once I asked

A date that doesn’t feel like a date could be good

Except she did all the talking

But one that doesn’t cater your interests is one that feeds into the latters needs 

Ache with tears wanting to spill over

Maybe I am not worth noticing 

Maybe its better to disappear